Running
I remember it so clearly, that single thought and the let down I felt throughout my entire body, my inevitable failure. This was about 5 years ago and I had decided that I was going to see if I could run a little. I guess I must have had a day that was worse than the others and came up with this plan to feel better about my day. I found a pair of sweatpants and laced up my shoes. I called out to my husband and laughingly said see you in 10 minutes. You know what? I couldn’t even make it down the driveway and across my street to the mail box. Not even that far. I walked back into my house and that was the end of that. I spent longer taking my shoes on and off than I did doing anything else. I returned to the comfort of my food and told no one about it, my husband never said a word about it either.
Now I am embarking on this journey again. Running is very challenging and I think its a good fit for someone who likes to push themselves. Rather than just lace up my shoes and walk out the door set up for failure I decided that I should put some thought into things and plan. I concluded that I would start with just walking for an hour several times a week, then I would add a little bit of jogging/running here and there when I felt I could. I surprised myself by actually being able to do an entire minute at a time and that felt good when I thought about the previous attempt. I am sure that all the time spent at the gym and the 50+ pounds removed from my frame made a big part of the change for me, but because I could do something? Well that was a reason to keep trying. A fellow blogger posted a message to me saying I should try a free program called Couch 2 5K and so I immediately searched it out and purchased the app for my phone.
This app takes you through a 9 week program which requires 3 times running a week. Each week a little more is added to your time jogging/running and you spend less time walking. You just follow the prompts that speak up over your music. I am now on week 3, which I have decided to repeat twice as my lungs burned the first time around.
I’m not going to tell you that its easy because its not. Do I feel proud of myself when I actually make it through the program list without failing a run part? You bet I do!! I feel empowered and although its currently only a maximum of 3 minutes at a time for my “long run” I feel like a total winner for doing it. I know that with time and persistence I will do more. I also know that I will most likely continue to curse and swear at that polite little voice that says,”Run now” as it gets harder for me. However I may have to think it rather than say it because that man looked at me weird when I was jogging along, sweating like crazy and panting like a dog and muttering “say WALK you stupid b#t2$!” That said I let it slide off my back, waved over my shoulder and said, “there’s an app for that!” I’m cool like that.
In all seriousness though? Although it is hard and I approach it with caution and bad knees I have taken a lot from the experience so far. My original goal was to complete a 5K run in September to celebrate my 40th birthday, I then decided I wanted to be part of the CIBC Run for a Cure 5K on October 2nd (why don’t you come out and join me with our Optimum Bodies team??) and now I have decided to do the July 2nd 5K being run by the boys over at Do Life who I have found much inspiration from.
I never thought that a time would come that I could say that last night I walked/jogged 3.4km. I didn’t think that was possible. I can say I have done that over 12 times now. One day I will look back on this and remember when I only did 3.4km, the great thing is I know this now and so it drives me in the best possible way.
Simply put? Like anything else in life, if you just have faith in yourself you can do it.
Taking it one day and one step at a time,
Natasha